also

I have a new poem coming soon, very soon.

g'nite ladies & gents

I have a question (or a few)

may I break something please,

may I drive for a 1000 miles without stopping,

may I scream at the top of my lungs,

maybe beat my head against a locker a couple of times,

may I sigh in frustration,

may I have time alone to clear my head,

may I lift weights all day long,

maybe pull my hair out instead,

may I throw fluorescent bulbs in the air just to watch them fall and break,

may I push over a stack of books in a library to watch them domino,

may I throw buckets of paint all over my walls,

maybe I'll drop a tv or two off my roof just to watch them shatter,

may you kindly explain to me what the heck you're thinking,

may you kindly enlighten me as to what you're doing,

may you kindly share with me your motives,

maybe I'll never know, maybe I'm never supposed to know,

may the silence and closing of my lips be an allegory of sorts to the sealing and searing of my heart.

The Star Spangled Banner like you've never heard it!

This gave me chills, click on this link.

I've never heard The Star Spangled Banner sung so wonderfully, especially by someone(s) so young.

Truly amazing. The Lord has blessed them.

quotes

"i am because He is"-stephenthomas

"respect is earned, unless you're female, then it's required"-stephenthomas

"it's not about turning heads, it's about turning hearts..the woman whose heart I turn is the woman I want to marry"-stephenthomas

"I like somebody? Really? I'll turn on the lights so you can see more clearly. I'm dating somebody so you say? Let me pull back the curtain and expose the light of day. So quickly do you judge w/o knowing me, making assumptions off of ...what you see. The gal for me I have not met, so patiently I wait on the Lord as He hasn't revealed her yet."-stephenthomas

"enough said"-stephenthomas

"i refuse to sing the words if my heart doesn't mean them"-stephenthomas

"if you bring up a topic jokingly in your conversation, eventually it'll get there seriously"-stephenthomas

"boo hoo boo hoo"-stephenthomas

"I'm not singing the words if they're not in my heart"-stephenthomas

"I don't love you because of what you do, or don't do..I just love you."

"Who you choose to be around, let's you know who you are."

"Romans 1:16: I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile."

"Grieving has to be taken a moment at a time. Eventually, there are more good moments than unbearable ones in a day, and then you know you've turned the corner into a new road."

"what's beyond that sea I wonder..the children leave their homes in search of this quest..as they search they are always asking questions..'what's out there?'..'what's waiting for me?'..leaving their innocence behind they set out on this journey and experience many life changing adventures, countless difficulties lie in wait, moments of despair, the lure of the razor's edge..there's always hope, joy, meeting new friends..they face challenges, but in the process they come to find themselves..this is a journey..when they have conquered a new land, yet another sea is reflected in their eyes..what's beyond that sea..when boys become young men..they begin their own quest..life is an endless journey."

"Everyone is a coward about something."

"Oh, Death was never enemy of ours! We laughed, knowing that better men would come, and greater wars: when each proud fighter brags He wars on Death, for lives: not men, for flags."

"Repugnant is a creature who would squander the ability to lift an eye to heaven, conscious of his fleeting time here."

"Anyone who isn't ready to fight for their country doesn't deserve a dang thing from it."

"My life, your entertainment. You watch it while I live it. I walk they follow, I talk they holla. Just here for your amusement. My life, your entertainment. You watch it while I live it. You waitin' for me to lose it, I guess I'm just here for your amusement."

"I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did, I don't wanna fall back on my face again."

"They say you can rap about anything except for Jesus. That means guns, sex, lies, video tapes, but if I talk about God my record won't get played..."

"The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians..who acknowledge with their lips, and walk out the door and deny it by their lifestyle...that is what an unbelieving world simply finds, unbelievable."

"You see, I have no opinion I don't, I could, but I won't, I'm tired of arguing. I have no opinion, nor do I need to win, see I'm tired, I'm tired of arguing. So don't begin with what cannot end because I'm tired, I'm tired of arguing. I have no opinion, actually I do, I just don't want to dispute with you."

"No man can say truthfully that he ever saw one more beautiful."

"I have a rendezvous with death..at some disputed barricade. It may be you should take my hand, and lead me into his dark land, and close my eyes, and quench my breath. I have a rendezvous with death..and I to my pledged word am true. I shall not fail that rendezvous."

"This, I realized now watching Dienekes rally and tend to his men, was the role of the officer: to prevent those under his command, at all stages of battle -- before, during, and after -- from becoming "possessed." To fire their valor when it flagged and rein in their fury when it threatened to take them out of hand. That was Dienekes' job. That was why he wore the transverse-crested helmet of an officer.

His was not, I oculd see now, the heroism of an Achilles. He was not a superman who waded invulnerably into the slaughter, single-handedly slaying his foe by myriads. He was just a man doing a job. A job whose primary attribute was self-restraint and self-composure, not for his own sake, but for those he led by his example. A job whose objective could be boiled down to the single understatement, as he did at the Hot Gates on the morning he died, of 'performing the commonplace under uncommonplace conditions.' "
-about the Spartans at Thermopylae

"Not for fame or reward, Not for place or for rank, Not lured by ambition or goaded by necessity, But in simple obedience to duty as they understood it, These men suffered all, Sacrificed all, Dared all, and Died."

"The unexamined life is not worth living."

"You have bewitched me body and soul."

"You're either in trouble, Just got out of trouble, Or you'll get the phone call tomorrow."

frustrated...contemplative...yea...

I don't know what to do.

So many thoughts going through my head, I can't hardly think straight.

Almost as if someone is using my brain in tug of war...being pulled in so many different directions.

Physically I believe I'm where the Lord wants me, but mentally...emotionally...nuh uh, not close.

I have doubts, worries, concerns, fears. They are oh so heavy on me now.

I know we're supposed to cast "your cares upon the Lord"...easier said than done my friend.

I have my good and bad days.

I still receive visits from memories and ghosts past, that I could do without.

In the same breath, I long to be home..I long for those from home.

Unmotivated...apathetic, very applicable words right now.

So many situations, I don't know what's going on, I'm not sure what to do, not positive I'm doing enough or even doing the right "thing".

This makes sense, but it doesn't. Read into this little bit of writing as you will. Interpret, decipher, decode, read between the lines...do whatever you must.

Bye.

I believe in you and me

by Whitney Houston...I love this song

just a poem for the mood I guess

here I sit, wallowing in my own frustration,
sick and tired of the same old crap I'm facing.

Not knowing where to turn, nor where to go.
Seeking guidance, wishing the way someone would show.

But it's not up to others, it's gotta be up to me,
but no matter how obvious, blind to the path I'm choosing to be.

Which way is up, and which is down,
I'm floating, falling, not planted firmly on solid ground.

I just want to scream, get it all out,
My frustrations, angers, sadness, doubt.

I feel like such a screw up, face in my hands here I sit,
To be honest, there have been times...life, I wanted to be done with it.

My cries and tears are but ever so subtle,
If you're not paying attention you won't see the ripples in the puddle.

Not the best line I know, but my point the words make,
Every little decision made, effects the path I will take.

So here I sit, in the midst of many words,
Putting them together carefully, as to not sound absurd.